4 years back in 2014, after being diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder type II and a severe clinical depression I was casually advised by my psychiatrist to write as a therapy. So in May 2014 I decided to open an account on WordPress and see if I can write something.
I must confess that I do not see myself as a true author, poet or even a blogger. I am a professional filmmaker, I make my living by writing advert copies and feature screenplays, and direct them for screen. But back in 2014, when I returned from Prague after finishing the film school, I was really down. I had a bad break up with my Russian ex-girlfriend and I was struggling to cope with the sudden changes. I started to write as an effort to preserve myself from my self-destructing thoughts.
Initially I started to write about what I knew most: Cinema and the art of it. Eventually I started writing poems, and some journals covering various things that interests me including wildlife and physics, sometimes short essays. Gradually I started to enjoy the process.
Since I am primarily occupied in the film business and also because I am too lazy, my poems/blogs are sporadic to say the least. To be honest I feel as an outsider in this beautiful community of amazing writers, poets and generally committed bloggers. But I love to be a part of it.
In 2015 I moved to Mumbai. During 2015 to 2016 I wrote and directed a lot of commercials and Television promos. In 2017 I wrote and directed my first feature film KARMA IS A SHE-WOLF which has been sold for distribution. Hopefully it will get a theatrical release this year. In the second part of 2017 and 2018 I was in Poland filming an Indo-Polish collaboration. Currently I am rewriting the draft of FM, which hopefully will be my next film. With all this chaotic happenings in my life I tend to skip blogging or writing poems, and I do not see myself becoming a consistent blogger anytime soon.
Today WordPress informed me that its 4 years that I have been on this platform and it made me happy for some reason. So I did an analysis of my blogs. 4 years, 175 blogs. On an average its 1 blog per 8 point something days. Not too bad to be honest, but yes the numbers could been much better. Good thing is I am in love with an amazing person from Prague, and that always make me write more. So lets see.
I have been reading on WordPress all these years and I found some amazing bloggers and their beautiful minds, made some friends, some acquaintances. So I would like to thank everyone who has ever interacted with me here, shared their struggles and fights, heartbreaks and solitude with me. Some of you have been very kind and supportive to my poems, and I truly appreciate you. You have been terrific and I am glad to be a part of your beautiful community. Thank you.
PS: The top picture is a screenshot from my film KARMA IS A SHE-WOLF. You can catch the trailer on YouTube:
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